What If?

Many people have played the mental game of what if from time to time. It is that moment when you enter your psyche and ask yourself a very interesting and thought provoking interogative–What if? Many people may consider this mental processing exercise dangerous. It can reveal to many individuals their feelings about once resolved issues. In some cases, people have taken internal inquiry to the next stage of external pursuit. 

While I am not attempting to tell anyone how to address his or her own understanding of a what if moment, I can’t help but be intrigued by the premise and notion of the question. It makes me think about areas of living where this interrogation of the heart can be applied. 

Let’s try this premise. Consider the following thought: What if Jesus did not die? What if Jesus decided not to follow through with the plan to die on the cross? The simple answer would be that we would not have a chance beyond this life. The more complex and realistic answer is that we don’t have a clue. 

I step back at times and consider how powerful and awesom a concept it is for anyone to willingly give his or her life for another person. It is powerful enough when it is an acute situation. Yet, the plan of salvation was an intentional, premeditated idea. The strategy was not last minute. The need was not a recent happening. The plan was set in motion almost 4000 years ago prior to the act of crucifixion. 

After all the time invested, the idea that Jesus would even think about stopping the process of salvation is absurd. Isn’t it? Well we can find a string of scriptures that challenge the notion. What if Jesus would have aborted the mission in the garden? Most believers do not like looking at Jesus through the lens of struggle. The Savior should not have any doubts about performing a task. Right? Come on, Jesus was resolute about everything else. Why not this act? We don’t look at the Christ through the looking glass of humanity. Why? We are constantly engaged with the divinity of Jesus. 

The subject of death is a serious step. Death has unbelievable consequences. Death is the finality of a season of existence. To enter this process, Jesus had to be clear that this method of dying was the right one. Before you accuse me of heresy, read the Bible. Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done. (Luke 22:42) Jesus made the request. Does that suddenly make you think that Jesus was weak? Does it take away from the power of Christ? No. 

As a matter of fact, every believer should go to a church service on Sunday and disrupt the proceedings with an ugly praise. Think about it. Jesus was seeking another way. It never came. Here comes the shout. Jesus bound himself to unconditional obedience to the Father knowing His request could be denied. Jesus could have disobeyed but did not. 

Even in the most challenging mental and emotional moments, Jesus safeguarded himself by yielding to relationship over personal feelings. That act is great sacrifice. How many of us could do the same? Trust me. Many people who will attempt to say yes have never faced a decision the magnitude of dying on the cross. 

Ok. So that depth of choice may not have been crucifixion. Nobody will ever be  in the position to choose death as an option to redeem anyone let along 7 billion people. That expectation is not fair to anyone. However, think about decisions that might have change the course of our existence. 

What if you went on a date with the nerd rather than the jock? It is very possible you might have been in a flourishing relationship rather than being with a shallow shell of a human being. What if you didn’t go to the networking event? You might have never received the moment to interview for your dream job. When you think about varied issues in your life, you will find many what if moments that will make you consider the path you are current taking. 

The question what if then serves as a necessary tool and unique reference point. When we feel down about our acute moments, let’s take a second to assess the alternative. I bet you have already considered all the possible alternatives. After reflecting on the various options, thank God that you are better fo than the momentary struggle you face. Just remember……what if…..

Bounce Back (My Lenten Journey Thus Far)

To say that my mind, heart, and soul are full would be the understatement of the year. I decided to take time away from many things. I felt compelled for the first time in my walk with God to intentionally focus on spending the Lenten season reconnecting with God, family, and my true self. Over the past few years, these most important relationships have been stretched, tested, afflicted, broken, and damaged due to unnecessary wear, tear, and limited maintenance. 

I know what some people might do. People who are acquainted with me will attempt to ascribe some reason to my confession. Heck, I have people asking me about my transition back home who have never had interest in my ministry pursuits. Lies have been told that I quit the ministry all together. Let me thank all of you for taking such an interest in my condition. I pray that in the future your inquiries will continue as God continues to order my steps. (Side note: You can’t quit a calling like you quit a job!)

So, this season of Lent is one to disengage from negative people, comments, attitudes, and lies. I have been in a serious need. Healing, hope, courage, and strength–these four attributes have been the elements that I have sought from the Lord to aid me through the next stages of my life. Yet this time, I did not ask and start looking for the manifestation. No, I got back to basics. I returned to square one. I went back to chasing after Him.

Brothers and sisters, many of you have been where I have. Carrying emotional, spiritual, and mental luggage that has cluttered the present and temporarily blocked the future. We try every single method, vice, process, or trend to readjust our mood or attitude. The truth is we all need time away to pursue the face of God. We need something more than just Sunday morning. I was tired of being a spiritual drug dealer. I was tired of being positioned only to get high off of my own supply. 

The last eight months have not been an easy time. I was not the best form of myself. As a matter of fact, I was the best form of a wounded, broken me….until 18 days ago. I told the Lord, I want to be better. So, I will walk this journey with you. All hell has broken loose in my life. My heart was broken by life and people. I questioned my worth to my wife and son. I began to accept that people were waiting for me to fail in life. But, the moment said, God, I yield, everything changed. 

What a difference this time has made. I know the journey is not finished, but I want to share a few things with you. I want share a couple of lists. Why? You may have or are currently dealing with the same feelings, emotions, thoughts, or challenges that have plagued my life for over 30 years. Yes, I have carried 30 year old bags of emotional, spiritual, and mental pain; but, the Lord has delivered. One list has many of the challenging thoughts I accepted about myself. The other list has the results of God’s intervention and deliverance. I share this as a testimony. If He did it for me, He will do it for you. 

When I was broken….

  1. I’m worthless
  2. I’m not worthy of any love
  3. What kind of man can’t get a decent job
  4. Why is my wife still here
  5. I have wasted my loved ones’ time
  6. All of my time ministering has been a waste to God
  7. Maybe I should quit
  8. My dreams are too big
  9. Nobody will ever accept me
  10. I don’t like me
  11. I’m weak
  12. What example of manhood am I giving my son
  13. I don’t want anymore accolades, I just want peace

When deliverance happened….

  1. Depression–Gone!
  2. Emotions–Balanced!
  3. Dreams–Revived and Restored (5 new book projects, Nonprofit development, Ministry opportunities, Preaching Opportunities)
  4. Rebuilding my family
  5. Restoration of my priesthood over my home
  6. Forgiving myself
  7. Releasing past disappointments (forgiving others, seeing enemies and loved ones through the eyes of God, understanding God’s grace, living in His grace)
  8. Chains of emotional bondage are broken
  9. Growth opportunities for my family
  10. My smile has returned

That is only 18 days on this walk with my Savior. I never imagined this would be the way God would answer my prayers, but I am grateful beyond measure. If you want to have your own experience, take the time to stop blaming others, complaining about what someone ain’t doing, or basing your whole life on pity. God has greater for you. Step back so God can help you bounce back!


–A grateful Charles

Working Through Social Media PTSD

As a 35 year old man, I have the distinction of being apart of the social media generation. My generation has sparked the revolution to generate more information-true or false-in split second, real time precision than any other generation. In 2017, we can truly say that the nature of being connected has reached epic proportions. Through my interactions in social media, I have come to one major conclusion. It is difficult to take many people seriously.

Why in the world would you say something like that?!?

I am compelled to say that many people have been given the gift of a public platform. With this gift, they have taken it and turn it into a stage to parade their bias, hatred, and self-loathing. A medium that has demonstrated the great potential to bring people together for the sake of causes that address the core, moral values that most individuals share has become the marketplace for people to expose their ignorance.

Through fake news, misinformed people, declining social graces, I find it almost impossible for people to engage in real dialogue about solutions to the constant problems of this society. What I have read on Facebook over the past week has made me sick to my stomach.

I have watched as the transition of power has played out in our nation. Barack H. Obama has become the former President of our republic. Donald J. Trump has assumed the office of President of the United States. In the midst of this change, people have demonstrated three major issues that have never gone away.

  1. Hypocrisy is alive and well
  2. Politics have become a god of this country
  3. People can not see the massive agenda of God

Hypocrisy

Many people have taken the liberty to forget many experiences that have occurred throughout history in our nation. After the election, many people called for the unwavering support of an individual who has been documented to reject, criticize, and demean people of all corners of life. Many of the same people call for this unilateral wave of support did not offer the same commitment to our previous president. This example is what would be called textbook hypocrisy.

However, I submit to you that I am not surprised by the response. I am not surprised by the manner that people act out their hypocrisy. Social media has become the breeding ground for fostering that level of ignorance. I am also not surprised by the way that people cannot see the hypocrisy.

Think about it. Social media allows me to express my world view, see other world views, reject world views, and maintain my stance without having to engage in real conversations about the possibility that I might be incomplete in my thinking. Some people would say that is your right in real life any way. It is different when you have to look someone in the eye and tell them that his or her world view is wrong. It is a different story when the evidence confronts you, and you must produce “alternative facts”.

A Political God?

Many people who claim a relationship with God have demonstrated also how much they really hate God. It might be a strong claim, but go with me for a moment. When you love somebody, you do everything yo can to know who they are; what they are all about; how they function in the world; and what matters most to them. The strange thing that I have discovered is how many people have decided that God is most concerned about the political process of broken, sinful country.

Let’s get this stuff out of the way. One, the United States is not a Christian country. It is a nation that espouses the freedom for anyone to practice their faith tradition based on the premise of religious freedom. Two, quoting Biblical Scriptures does not make something acceptable to God. It just proves your ability to cognitively retain information. Three, politics will not save us. God is not small enough to limit to personal ideological platforms.

The audacity of many people to suggest that a person who has insulted individuals who are created in the Imago Dei is the representative of Jesus Christ is as despicable as me suggesting that Michael Jordan was worse than Christian Lattener. Think people. Jesus represented not only the way to salvation for all who would believe on Him, but He was the embodiment of God’s love toward the spiritually, economically, socially, and emotionally disenfranchised.

Jesus challenged the spirit of politics in the social and spiritual realm. Consider how he cleared the temple of money changers and critiqued the theological stance of the lackluster priests. Jesus looked at those who needed to experience God in the only way they know how, but they were being exiled from His presence because they did not meet economic or social requirements set by the religious right.

Jesus’ anger was justified because the purpose of the temple was being reduced to human benefit alone. God was not being honored. Engagement with God was not being pushed. What a sad state of affairs that people were being intentionally blocked from the presence of God because of personal preferences. Go figure.

Unfortunately, we live in a society that decided to adopt the same principles of the past and justify them as holy unto God when they are totally in opposition of His Will. By performing this action, we tell God that He is not necessary in the process of human affairs. We tell God that His ways are subject strictly to our whims. This thinking will not allow us to reach the promise that in store for all who love and truly follow the principles of the Word.

The Mission Is Larger Thank Our Perspective

I have watched as people have narrowed the mission of God to very narrow perspective. When people bring any form of injustice to the forefront, other individuals attempt to silence the deep concern of that group voicing their experience. I find it amazing that the same people who are concern about abortion do not care about the quality of lives for individuals who yet live. I am dumbfounded by people who believe that all is well in the world, but consider those who are the least of these as whining and complaining.

Ladies and gentlemen, Jesus explicitly said this in Matthew 25:31-41:

31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, then he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 Before him will be gathered all the nations, and he will separate people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 And he will place the sheep on his right, but the goats on the left. 34 Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, 36 I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.’ 37 Then the righteous will answer him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink? 38 And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? 39 And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?’ 40 And the King will answer them, ‘Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers,[a] you did it to me.’

41 “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels.

God is going to separate the sheep from the goats based on their ability to address the issues that God cares about most. Hmmmm….Check this out. The scripture does not give us the room to be sheep with goat tendencies. My relationship (key being relationship) with God dictates how I should conduct myself in the world. It governs how I embrace people from all corners of life. My encounter with God should soften my heart to see the challenges in the environment and provide relief and answers that reflect the love, grace, and mercy of God.

In order for that objective to be achieved, I must embody the totality of the mission of the Creator of all. As the created, I have no right to tell God how to do His job. I have no right to alter the mandates that Christ has brought forth. My only responsibility is to carry out the job that He has granted.

Ultimately, we must give an account for the work that we have performed to the purpose of God’s Kingdom. If we decide that the mission is based on our whims alone, we may have to answer for our inability to grow in relationship with God and learn the importance of compassion and love. We will be subject to the penalty of sin of denying our true allegiance to God because we believed our agenda was greater. My prayer is that people will take a step back and consider for a moment the implications for pumping out so much negativity into the atmosphere.

Recognize that people can only bear so much trouble without an answer for hope. People do not need to be abused any longer with an incomplete approach to life. It is time for compassion, love, and revolutionary change. Do not subject yourself to the trends of the day-division, strife, generational bigotry, etc. Be compelled by the genuine power of your relationship with God to be a catalyst of change. I even challenge you to engage people, including me, to begin the conversation about sustainable change, growth, and empowerment.

Power to all…..Strengthening all to struggle no more!